hapihapisaturday!!

Hapihapisaturday!!

Went out wif celest, boon, wquan, keatkee n zester.
Ben didn't turn up *shrugs*
The guys were quite shy initially.
So not their usual self lahs.
haha. But it was fun though.
Seeing them bickering awae.
Giving each other's secrets away while me n celest listen on.
Did sum duet wif boon n zes.
*claps* they were not bad wors =)
Did a couple of jay chou's songs with wquan
I didn't noe he cld sing wors. haha.
It wus a pleasant surprise though=)
Sang with my darling celest too =)
Took sum nicenice neoprints!!
SO FUN!! =DD

Sumhow, seeing everyone crapping awae.
Shooting each other with vulgarities..
All those immature acts in the kbox..
Sumhow, it didn't as though we all have been awae frm one another fer very long..
The feelings n all were just so familiar..
At times, when school gets too boring and dead fer me..
I would realise that I am actually missing these good frens of mine.
Miss all those good times =)

Met up with von after that. hmms. 'cause Jer cldnt make it. oh wells. Went shoe-shopping with von. It wus lotsa fun!! haha. Saw this pair of reali nice looking flats. Oh my tian. haha. Got the urge to buy lorhs. haha. haha. hmms. Had a nice dinner after getting what von wants. And then we met a couple of interesting people. Pretty friendly though. =)

`the day would haf been so much happier with him. It's been 22days lers..='(

*04UNzip*

Let me explain the title of this entry. haha. I'm finally meeting up with sum unzippers that I haven been goin out with fer a LONG LONG time. Hehehx. Especially Celestine. Haven gone out with her fer ages. A year and seven months le lorhs. While wquan, boon, zes, keatkee, it's just seven months. haha. Feel so guilty towards my darling celest. hehehx. But yups, we are finally meeting up TML! *so looking forward!!*

hmms. now fer the usual boring updates of my life...

1. I flunk my midyears.
2. It's been three weeks since I met up with my boyfren *sighs*
3. Been very cranky recently.
4. On-off fevers *hate it*
5. I'm finally going to step down from my post.
6. Cried two times fer Flor n Helmi.
7. Went to keep my darling Peiling company while she did her last day of CIP.
8. Met an adorable kid whu sat down beside me n refused to leave *heex*

Think that's about it bahs. haha. Had so much fun in the library today though I wus having abit of a headache still. Adorable kids just rawk my life =D OH yarhs, wus toking to Peiling n Yvonne abt our dear 'sister' 's bdae. No sarcasm orite? I am just not disclosing her name here. hmms. I've been having the urge to tell about the truth as to why everyone don't wana be with her or even around. I just feel so hypocrtitical, everytime I had to just smile fakely, act normally even though I was way disgusted about her behaviour. Heys. I am badly tramautised, just sitting beside her during lects, even if it's just fer an hour. It's scary lorhs. I guess everyone shld get what I mean. I don't mean to be evil or what. If I had intended to be evil, I would have just yell at her each time she starts doing it. Shouldn't we tell her nicely? I know she might cry. But the truth always hurts. And, if she's going out to the society to work, people won't be able to stand her either. And things won't be any better then. I guess, I would tell her soon. Stop my agony. As well as everyone's. And to help her be a more acceptable person.

Gona go off lers. Promise honey that I would do my practices. =)

`If I die, would you cry? If I stab myself, would you feel the pain?

Past and Present Day

Today's Pjc's Past and Present Day. haha. Went back to school early in the morn to support sanjay n evan's band. They were so fabulous! Great guitarists. Great drummer. N a great vocalist! The vocalist has a superb voice that can beat every single one of the contestant left on the Singapore Idol lahs. I can vouch fer that. And it's not very often that you hear such good comments from me. Usually, I'm very critical towards singers. But her, I have nothing to say. =)

Went to buy alcohol wif flor after the band thingy. haha. Den walked to her void deck to drink n have a heart-to-heart talk.=DD hmms. Den walked all the way back to lot one fer dinner. haha. Went home after that. And you know what?!! haha. I saw sumone. And the sumone saw me jus when I turned lorhs. haha. Just smiled n waved. =DD And another coincidence is that that sumone wus wearing the same jersey as me!! oh my tian lahs.. haha.. But ya.. nth much lahs. Jus abit high 'cause it wus so much of a coincidence. Nothing more than that. =)

hmms.. anewaes, I am feeling SAD! I got a big fat F fer my maths. argh. Am so dead. I just feel so stupid. Maybe, I really am. =(

Portugal vs France

Let me start off with the good news first kays? =DD
1. The freaking midyears are OVER!! *FREEDOM!*
2. No more worrying about sleepless nights!!
3. I have four and a half days of HOLIDAYS!! ~ *aren't you jealous of me?*
4. It's smart and casual day on MONDAY!! *no more penguins outfit.*
5. World Cup Final is on Monday!! *wahahah*
6. The best-est thing of all, I get to report LATE fer school on Monday!! *whee~*
*I'm overly hyper today! =D

hmms. Now, fer the not-so-good stuffs. argh.
1. No meeting Jer anemore.
2. Jer's exams are cuming *meaning that he'll have even LESSER time fer me=( *
3. I'm dying from lovesickness *sobssobs*
4. There is no official school holiday on Monday *can't risk ponning klass again.. gona get blacklisted veri soon*
5. Getting back the freaking papers on Monday?!! *why are teachers so freakingly efficient when it comes to letting us face our fears?*
6. I'm so going to flunk my midyears *No doubt about it*
7. Going to have tea in the Principal's Office veri soon. *Actually, I prefer coffee=D hehe*
8. It's 3 more months to PRELIMS
9. FOUR more months to A lvls *eww..*
10. And FOUR MORE MONTHS till FREEDOM is a LONG LONG time :( *goes crazy*

Yups. that's about it fer the updates. oh yarhs!! A reminder to all! Saturday's preformance must turn up wors!! My dear fren, Peiling's sanjiii, Flor's honeyyy is performing. And not forgetting our dear philosophical EVAN!! =DD alrights. Be sure to turn up fer a great time kays? =)

*sadexpression*

What is there to be said?
Been rather sick these few days..
Feeling giddy... Feverish n all..
All I can do, is sleep n sleep n stil SLEEP.
But all those sleeping seems to be doing me more harm than good.
argh.
True, I have been sleeping alot.
But NOT WELL.
Sobs..
Been drifting in and out of sleep.
This is so BAD!
I'm feeling weaker n sick-er by the day.
This simply sucks.
sobs...

Hmms. Tml's econs papers. FYI, I haven't hit my books yet. Don't think I ever will. Am too sick to absorb any information into my drowsy brain right now. Hais. Oh mans. Think I'm worse off than jus being dead fer this midyears. ha. Things aren't really going well fer me at this point of time. hais. Just feeling lost. oh wells. Back to resting. tata~

xin's back!

the german n argentina match is on right now. haha. My living room is in a mess. Rowdy guys. Almost drunk. Tsk! Current score: 1-1 Oh wells. I need a break from the rowdiness and alcoholic smell there. haha. That's why I am blogging fer awhile=D

Hmms. Its been awhile since I blogged. Nothing much is happening in my life, I guess. Mid-year exams are ending soon. I'm kinda slowly getting back on track. I need lotsa motivation! hais. *shrugs* It's five more months to FREEDOM! Whee~

Went towning todae. Jer wanted to meet me. But HAIS. It didn't work out. Shucks. I miss him sososososo much lahs. *sobs* Saw alot of ppl in town. Sorry ppl. I'm not really in a very sociable mood todae, 'cause I'm missing sumone far too much. =( hais. He's out wif his frens watching the match while I'm stuck home with the rowdy guys. HAIS!

*short interruption: second half jus ended: 1-1. extra time starting in awhile.. Noise level increasing.. Sum of the drunk n rowdy guys just lost money..wahahah..I am evil=Pp*

hmms. I'm returning to the tv soon. Just saw this veri meaningful nick which just popped up.. "Real tears are not those that fall from the eyes and cover the face, but those that fall from the heart and cover the soul." Oh mans.. this is sooo.. true, I guess? =) Enjoy the matches, guys=) Dun gamble too much. =DD

SICK

SICKSICKSICKSICK.
I can't believe I'm sick again!!
argh.
I think I'm missing him far too much.
Maybe, that's why!
I'm lovesick.
Where are you when I need you most right now? ='(

Hmms. Can't blame him. He's got his own life. Sobs. Don't lyke having a fever. My temp din go down! It went UP! argh. I need him around. ='( hais. Tml got maths mock exams. I'm so goin to flunk it. Wus so busy doing sum dumb stuffs which sumone wun even appreciate. N I didn't get to study much. Sianned. Hopefully, I would die of a fever tonight. Save me the trouble of doing so many things. Save me the trouble of going to school to flunk my paper. haish. I'm becoming sadistical. This is bad.

`FIVE MORE DAYS. I don't think you even rmb.. =(

Peanut attacks !!!

Hees. I know my title shows kinda ridiculous. Haha. Shall tok about it lata. haha. Am feeling quite sick right now. Yups. Am sick again. Been lacking rest, I guess. Plus the dumb rain! argh. Urms in case aneone is wondering why am I blaming the rain.. I'm a lazy person whu hates to bring an umbrella along with me even if my bag is relatively empty. *grins*

Anewaes. Went school early in the morn fer Geog. Urms. I got to sit beside Peipei's 'good sister' aka Scritchy Scratchy. Opps =X Alrights. I'm evil lahs. But I really got real tramautised lahs. So much so that I wus having a psychological reaction. Argh. Oh mans. I felt as though I wus going to jus yell at her in the end of geog lect lahs. Or just turn to my side n slapped her in the face. Sheesh. I feel bitchy. Geog lect wus relatively ok lahs. Managed to get thru it with little difficulty; in fact, I wus paying attention most of the time except fer short moments when I turned n whined at Flor. haha. Poor Flor. =P

Hmms. Sat ard while toking to Clement. Don't why I trust him alot. haha. He's a great fren, I guess. haha. hmms. Purposely took my time in strolling to my extra lesson venue. I wus the oni one frm the klass. Poor Xin. haha. BUT! CHIA wus late lahs. Waited ard 15 mins. Time wus rather well-spent 'cause I wus playing soccer on my hp. It's addictive n great game! haha. Extra lesson wus boring. Felt so sleepy lahs. Wus practically resisting the urge to dozing off but CHIA wus right in front of me. All I cld do is to scribble on my notes while keeping awaking. Hees.

Went to look fer hellmate n flor in the canteen. First time see Hellmate so excited to eat lunch with me. She must be starving lorhs. haha. Studied awhile. Den fooled ard when Sanjay came n joined us. Den Gimsiong n helmi came as well. Tsk. Distractions! hmms. But we had fun lorhs. Crapping and all. haha. I practically didn't study after that lorhs. Oh yarhs. Played Bridge with Black, Helmi, one indian guy. Its so addictive lahs. I won quite abit. Beginner's luck. I can't believe I finally learnt the game!! *so happy* Flor wus busy toking on the phone while peipei wus watching us. As flor wus a distance away, we started attacking her with peanuts. haha. So funny lahs. Then, I suddenly said to my comrades that I am goin to demo a headshot. haha. And I hit flor right on the forehead with the peanut. haha. *a sense of achievement* Peipei joined in the game after the indian guy left and got really addicted. haha. Both of us were. haha. We won quite abit together. SO happy. The two experienced ones losing to newbies. wahaha. =DDD Left school ard 7 plus before Gerald Boh cums about. But then again, its really okay lahs. He's alrdy a fren of mine. He will give me face de lahs. Or perhaps he will even join in lahs.

Alrights. This is a rather crappy entry. haha. Gona go off liaos. Need a rest badly. =(

`I wus worried. Dead worried. ='(

060606

060606
Thats the date of todae.
So unique rights?
Its oni cums once in a lifetime. And I got to spend it with flor *my great buddy*, peipei *my gorgeous hellmate* n leen *my kboxing cum swimming buddy*.
It's such a happy happy n great day!! =DD

Alrights. We went to watch The Omen. Great movie. I said so 'cause it wus better than what I had expected lahs. I had very bad expectations of it. But it didn't bore me to sleep. So that's one good thing, I guess? There wus thrill, suspense, abitbit of gross scenes. But overall, it's acceptable by my standard. At least, I didn't think I wasted money on my movie ticket. It wus a great horror comedy fer me, I must say. haha. Alrights. Kidding. haha. Memorable movie *satisfied look*

Met celestine in sch fer the second time this week. And got reminded that I hafta to meet up with her real soon. haha. Haish. I'm really a bad fren. Keep neglecting my good frens. Think will meet up with her, boon n the rest fer a catching-up session this fridae bahs. But, cum to think of it, there is cellgroup on fridaes. Urms. But then again, I am changing church lers. So, it wldnt do much harm if I skipped it rights? haha. Shall think it thru before I decide bahs.

Gona go study maths lers. Must start mugging!! Oh. Anewaes, duno if dear will see this. Good luck fer your econs test tml. =)

`you complete my life.

Would you rather. . .?

Would you rather choose
a) A guy who loves you more than you love him,
b) A guy whom you love more than he loves you?

Sumone just asked me this. Such chiminology. *slaps forehead* And my answer? haha. I don't need a guy who loves me more than I love him. But of course, that would be best lahs! haha. hmms. As fer a guy whom I love more than he loves me? Urms.. its alrights fer me bahs. But if I were to choose? Urms..Of course having a guy who loves you more wld be more blissful, i guess. ;) But then, love can't be quantified. Its unmeasurable. haha. I'm crapping as usual. Its not abt who loves who more, I guess? Its more of a mutual thing bahs. haha. *blehs*

Hmms. I realised that I haf got alot of movies that I want to watch!! haha. I wana watch theomen,silenthill,benchwarmers,garfield2,she'stheman,slither,xmen3,toofasttoofurious-tokyodrift,cars!!!! ahh.. But then, duno why, I don't seem to haf the mood fer movies lehs. Contradictory again. haha. Weird me. =(

`i miss you real bad. . .

Boring Weekend

I can't believe that I actually stayed home fer the whole day today. haha. Too bad, no one asked me out. *shrugs* I'm quite back to being myself again ler, i guess? haha. hmms. Must thank my beloved boyfren fer staying up to cheer me up even though he wus darn sleepy. Haha. So sorry to deprive you of your sleep. =) *hugx* you're the best ler.. =)

Din do much today. Boyfren's away. N no one wans to date me out. Oh wells. Its a lonely saturday. And I spent it obediently at home. haha. My parents were shocked to see me home on a weekend *blehs* haha. Hmms. Am really looking forward to tomorrow!! haha. Heex.. Think is the first outing I am goin out wif the ogls bahs. Oh mans. I haf been so anti-social recently. But, yups, a miracle has happened as zhao said. haha. =) Its gona be a whole lot of fun!! *wheeee!!*

Gona turn in pretty early todae, i guess. hmms. But before that, I am goin out fer dinner first. =DD tata~

tiring tiring day . . .

Just reached home not long ago. Tired. Totally worn out. Haha. Went sch early in the morn fer geog lect. Wus late 'cause I took the wrong bus. haha. Got the good news that tml no lect. So happy that I cldn't concentrate. Haha. Went lotone fer MAC breakfast wif flor n leen. Den slacked ard wif them till leen's mummie finally got back to us, allowing us to use her place to continue slacking. Haha. But FLOR PANGSEH-ed us lahs. *hmmphs* You're NOT forgiven. *hmmphs* Leen's place is full of fun. haha. Her little sis is so cute n sociable!! haha. Yups. Fooled ard fer quite abit n both me n leen just fell aslp on the floor. heex. ANd got videoed by her little sis. Sheesh. Den when we woke up, we played the piano awhile den went to watch abit of tv. Left her home oni when leen went fer her haircut. Went home alone. *sobx* Met Linn on the bus to the mrt n saw rhoda too. Both stil as sweet n pretty. haha.

Den DUMBASS junwei had to msg me n tell me tt he spoilt my guitar : "ehh.. I made a hole in ur guitar." Oh my tian lahs. He really is a dumbass. N I just replied him coldly, " oh ok.." Den he told me he wus just kidding with me. What the hell lahs. Not funny lorhs. True lahs, I dun play my guitar anemore but stil gt gan qing one mahs. haha. And that kuku din tell me that he wanted a classical one. DUMBASS PIGGY YAP!

Tml might be goin out. See lorhs. Hopefully can go shopping. Heex. =D Stil kinda sick.. *shrugs* Immune is down again. I dun lyke this week!! So packed!! I need a break!! =( *but I'm looking forward to dinner on Sunday!*

Happy Birthday to Me

I wld lyke to announce that I haf the best bdae ever! The most memorable, greatest, most interesting n fun bdae ever!! =D

Special thanks fer ppl whu wished me.. a big big thank yew to :von,ster,flor,boon,mydearest jer, shanshan, junhao, suxian, jh kor, sengpeng, ebo, peipei, eileen, rhoda, linn, weelun, mag, ade, nessa, helmi, evon, wquan n eric.. thanks fer rmbing =)

Special special thanks fer PRF.. thanks fer making my bdae celebration so memorable. haha. thanks quackiex. -__- oh wells.. Reali love the collage n gift.. n esp the celebration. U all have brought so much joy n laughters into my life. I am reali grateful to God fer good frens lyke you all.. abab loves u all=D

Special special thanks to von n shaofen. thanks fer the nice bracelet. heex. its reali veri nice. I so hapi to receive it lahs. Got stars nehs!! =D love ya all. n thanks von fer the nice memories booklet.. its so sweet of you lorhs.. I love you!! =D

Special special thanks to minghong, ster n von ... thanks fer walking the BIG walk wif me. haha.. thanks fer the accompany thruout.. thanks fer the wonderful surprise.. its reali pleasant.. N i am really touched.. I love you all!! =D

Special special thanks to ebo! thanks fer being a great company. hmms. thanks fer the treats n gifts. haha. I feel so bad fer having you spend so much.. =( anewaes. I reali had lotsa fun.. the movie rawks lahs. haha. thanks fer putting a smile on my face even though, I am so shagged. I will always rmb what u said to me..=)

Special special thanks to Jer.. thanks fer taking the trouble to meet me.. Sory fer having you shorten ur KL trip. urms. yups.. thanks fer spending time wif me.. hais.. too bad, time just flew past so quickly before I knew it.. yups.. thanks alot.. you gav a happy ending to my bdae.. =D I love euu.. =)

lastly.. just wana say.. THANK YEW!!

ps: more details n pics will be up tml.. got so many nice pics.. weeeeeeeee~ i love you all !!=D *hugs*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR=D

Oh wells. todae's my dear's bday. happy birthday to him once again. hmms. Oh wells. He's too busy enjoying himself wif his frens again. hmms. oh wells. Can't blame him. Its his day. *shrugs* =) hmms.

Todae just sucks. Gees. My poor jc1s hafta help the concert band put chairs n remove them. hmms. Sorry eileen. Not that I dun enjoy wrking wif you. But I dun lyke to do such SAI KANG wrk. N whats worse is that all of us merely got sabo-ed! argh. Hmms. And what do we get frm all this? Pathetic CIP hrs. oh wells. If we needed CIP hrs, we can organise more interesting things lorhs. And if the job is badly done, we get all the blames. How great! =( Dun lyke. Dun lyke. argh. Ther goes my weekend. argh.

Am so so so so sick. I think I m losing my voice. argh. haish. This sucks lahs. hmms. =( sobs. anewaes, gona thank ebo fer comforting me. you rawkx. hmms. thanks alot. =) thanks fer making my dae alittle beta. haha. Gona go rest lers. haven been resting enuff lately. Been too busy. argh. =( I need retail therapy!! But I heard that friday I've got rehearsal?!! @!#%!%@$@ argh. I'm dying of stress n depression. I need retail therapy. BADLY!! =(

`Off to bed liaos. =(

I PONNED SCHOOL TODAE!!

Before I start on my post...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JER! *though its few hrs earlier*

Alrights. Done. Yups. I ponned school todae. Fer my dear. haha. Heard that half the class ponned sch too. Geez. Its becuming the klas's trend lers. Tsktsktsk. Can't believe this bunch of us are taking the A lvls in a few mths' time. >.<

Oh wells. Hmms. Woke up darn early todae. Haha. All the msges. haha. Cldnt go back to slp. haha. Hmms. Dear called me when he woke up before he went sch fer miting. Den I went out ard one plus to go get cake fer him. heys. I rmbed to bring a lighter!! haha. So proud of myself. Heex. Passed him everything in the car. Argh. Sang bdae song fer him too even though I had a bad throat todae. Duno whether he's touched or nts. haha. hmms. Oh wells. Yups. Went watch Poseidon n MI 3.. Nt bad lahs. Its been sum time since I watched movies wif dear. hmms.. yups. I enjoyed myself todae. Perhaps.. more than he did. *grins*

Hmms. Oh yarhs. My PE teacher called me halfway thru MI3. But I din noe whu she is. Until the end of the call.. then both of us realised whu we were toking to. haha. So funny lahs. Aneways. Gona get real busy liaos.. hmms.. The club is involved in College Day. *gosh*

`i noe what i wan fer my bdae lers - fer you to spend it wif me . . .

a lesson fer the guys

I found this on my friendster's account. And found to be rather meaningful n true..

A lot of guys don't know, girls can flare their temper on them, but when the girls turn back, they are actually crying.
A lot of guys don't know, girls won't really get angry with them, because they really love and care about them.
A lot of guys dont know. girls will only nag at the guys they love, and will only be stubborn to the guys they love.
Guys must know, if the girl don't love you, she won't even care about you and nag you, she does so cos she is afraid you will do the wrong stuff.
Guys must know, if the girl don't love you, she won't even vent her anger on you, won't act cute infront of you and won't let you dote her because infront of other people,
she is just nothing much.
Guys must know, if the girl don't love you, you won't even have the ability to make her cry, even ifyou cause her to be angry for you for more than 2days.
All these is because she loves you, and all these is because you don't really understand and careabout her.
So, if the both of you often quarrel, you will think she has got bad temper, and she will think youdont give in to her.
So, if the both of you often get into cold war, you will think she dont love you, and she will think you dont care about her.
So, both of you always ridiculously missed each other,
maybe missing each other is a type of saddening helplessness and happiness.
Because she loves you, that is why she vents her anger on you and often cute in front of you.
Because she loves you, that is why she will get angry with you.
And because she loves you, she won't be angrywith you for a long period of time.
Do you guys know, every girl's heart is made of crystals, flashy but easily broken.
Do you guys know, every girl don't build a wallaround herself, you easily land inside her heart andleft wounds when you leave.
Every girl doesn't know, in this world, no one can make her cry,
because the person who is worthy of her tears won't bear to let her cry.
Every girl will possess this personality, she will be bossy, she will be cold to you, she will tell you to go away,
but actually.. in her heart, she wants youto stay..
So please, lift up your ears and open your heart,
listen to her desires and needs in her heart,
but not listen to those stubborn words from her mouth.
She will watch you turn away, then she will turn away
and when she turns away, you won't see her tears,
those are tears in her heart.
So if you love her, please always stay by her side.
If you love her, please dote on her more.
If you love her, please give in more to her.
If you really love her, please listen to her true feelings in her heart,
which is a form of screaming.
Please open your arms and hug her.
In the world of love, both of you always hurt each other, as if only this can prove how much you love each other.
But in love, there is no one who is right or wrong,and no such thinkings of me having more than youor you having less than me.
You love her and she loves you, this is already sufficient,
you don't have to purposely hurt her,causing both of you to be more sad and weak.
What you need in loving each other is being gentle, being happy, being sweet
but not hurting each other.
Don't have cold war, don't be stubborn, not giving into each other,
and please don't leave without saying a word..
You must know, when you leave, you see nothingin your eyes, you don't see the tears in her eyes.
The more quietness, the more cold war, this is hurting each other.
No matter how you patch with her, these scars will always exist, no matter how you try to remove it..
Please give her a hug,
use it to remove the sadness and tears in her heart.
If she loves you, she won't reject your hug,
she will only be afraid of ur coldness and leaving without a word.
So, if you love her,
love her everything so that all those attitude problem will become her cuteness.
She don't need you turning away like she said,
she only need your hug and love..

`Should I follow what my heart says or my mind?

=( )=

Todae had been a great day. Having yvonne ard doing shopping n stuffs. Thanks alot dear. Thanks fer accompanying me walk ard fer so long n fer tolerating the indecisive me. Reali thanks alot. And nidda apologise to peipei, susu, leen n liyi fer my attitude todae. 'Cause I'm really in a rush. Not that I'm unwilling to shop wif u gurls. I wld love to. But todae, I'm really rushing fer time. So sorry.

Wus almost late fer dental appt. hmms. My dentist lyke can't wait to get rid of me lidat. hmms. My appt ended in lyke less than 10 mins? haha. hmms. then walked hm. 'Cause I'm too broke to take cabby lers. ='(

Hmms. Just went online nt too long ago. Sumone familiar msged me. A sumone whom had been too busy fer me. *shrugs* oh wells. If I say I ain't disturbed by what that sumone said, I'm lying. Haha. And I'm always a bad liar. Sheesh. hmms. Its the same thing that has been bothering me all along. Such a coincidence. Oh wells. What can I do? I can oni take a step at a time n hope fer the better? I'm lost. I need sumone badly. ='(

"I tell you i love you every day for fear that tomorrow isn't another" - quoted frm evan's entry *this is how I feel as well*

=D

I am a happy girl.

Met up wif my beloved boyfren ysd. After a longlong wait lahs. *hmmphs* Dun lyke waiting. But I dun haf ane choice. *shrugs* Its lyke I only get to meet him once in a blue moon. *sobx* hais. Hmms. oh wells. I enjoyed myself ysd, nevertheless. =D My boyfren is the best-est!! *hugs* But sadly, time always seems to fly when I'm wif him lorhs. Hours just FLEW passed n he had to drive me home again =( If only..I'm on the top of your priority list.. =(

Hmms. The coming week is goin be a short week. 'Cause friday is a holiday! hmms. But I lyke fridays of all the days lorhs. Its a geography day! Duno why lahs. I just love geog. Heex. Hmms. Oh yarhs. I haf yet to shop fer Shan's bday. Uhoh. DIE! Stil duno what to get her. I'm on a tight budget!! haha.

Gona get to my studying lers. Peipei n my boyfren are starting to worry fer my studies. Can't let them down. Oh yarhs.. In case, I dun get to blog fer the next few days.. Just wana say.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEIQUAN!! You'll always be my great guyfren. May all your wishes cum true. And I'm sure you'll get the girl of ur dreams soon..

` Time seems to drag whenever you're not by my side . . .

sadsadsmiley

Paradoxical title.

I am SICK! =`( *sobx*

The worst thing is, Napfa is TML! How great! I'm going to flunk it bad. I can't jump. I can't reach. I can't sprint well enuff. I can't pullup. *sheesh* My PE teacher's going to kill me lahs. And ther's freaking econs test tml. ESSAY test. How cool! -__-

And what's worse is that, I missing him far too much.. =`(

And here's part of my fav song =)

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may, I can never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing
The smile on your face
Lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand
Says you'll catch me wherever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all ...

Post labour day

MY QUACKIEX IS BACK!! I am sosososo happy lahs. alrights. I beta stop showing my gaga-ness over my hellmate. 'cause my beloved boyfren just told me that I sound lesbian-ish. Sobs. How can lidat sae me?!! =((

Life's tiring. I practically lost sleep last night. I din sleep a wink. And right now, my eyes are straining painful. hmms. oh wells. Duno why. Just cldn't get to slp. Perhaps, I am missing him too much? hmms. Hais. Whu asked my boyfren to be so busy?!! argh. *hmmphs*

Anewaes. Todae had geog test. And I actually studied fer it last night. Wahaha. BUT! Ended up my dear handsome geog teacher told me its goin to be an openbook test. How nice! =( All my efforts gone to waste. Lost hope in studying lers. Oh yarhs. I duno whats wrong wif my dumb maths teacher. She just can't teach lahs. Keep on wasting my precious time. Oh my gosh. Now she wana haf maths lessons on saturdae as well. Ther goes my precious weekend. Argh. Haha. I am goin to MUG fer maths and get a B! hmms.. not veri achieveable.. but I'll try ya? But then hors.. World Cup cuming!! Jialat. Think Yvonne's cuming ova to stayover. Heex. Can haf company to watch the matches wif. No longer lonely.=DD

Gona go off n try studying econs. =DD I am a gd gurl. WEE! =DD

`the oni thing I wan fer my birthday is, happiness..

Sunday

Had a good cry last night. Just gotten stretched to the extreme that I just broke down. Hais. I am sorry honey. Didn't mean to take it out on you. I'm sorry. Sunday. I missed service today. Hais. I just got grounded fer today. Sianned.

hmms. Oh wells. Hate to be reminded of my bad memories lorhs. I am sumone whu badly wishes to forget all the shitty-nutty stuffs n hides them all at the back of my head. Hmms. Sumhow, ppl will just unintentionally remind me of them. *cringes in pain* Hmms.. I seriously haf a psychological problem after all that has happened. hais. Insecurity has became a part of me now. And sumtimes, it drives me crazy. Sumtimes, I really wish I wldn't haf that dumb feeling in me. argh. But I can't help much about it. *frustrations* Hate this mans. When will this ever end fer me? =((

I dread the month of May. Year after year, the same stuffs happened. Kinda a routine lers. I'm used to it. *shrugs* Became numbed lers. hmms. Oh wells. Haf decided to get the 200++ bracelet fer mummie. Gona be sososo broke. I wish this year wld be different. I wana be happy, that's all.

busybusyweek

*xin clears the cobwebs n sweep away the dust*

Its been so long since I blogged. Alrights. Though its been oni lyke urms..three days. Haha. Duno why it just feels so long to me. Perhaps, its 'cause too many things are happening bahs. Oh wells. Been feeling veri lethargic recently. Duno why.

Hmms. Ysd Jer came to find me. Wee! Finally lorhs. Haven seen him lyke fer a week n one day till yesterday. You can't imagine how happy I wus lorhs. Ask flor. She saw my expression when I read the msg in which he said he wana cum find me. =D *hapi hapi grin* Haha. I feel so dumb. *shrugs* Am so dumbly in love wif this guy.. =P Watched firewall. Hey. I lyke the movie! haha. though I wus rather slpy thruout. haha. =) i love you dear..

Today's another hapi hapi day! hmms. I had my first pizzahut date with my gorgeous hellmate! *hyperventilates* but before I go into details abt that. I hafta mention the prelude. Haha. Both of us ran out of school lyke two mad women. Two teachers saw us. haha. Kinda dumb. Then we were sweating so unglam-ly. hmms. N we saw the big director at the busstop. N my dear hellmate started to panic. *hmmphs..i m jealous* Haha. She's so cute lahs. =) Alrights. End of prelude. The date wus great =D We practically tok abt everything under the sun. hmms. Crapped wld be a better word. haha. Kept luffing n luffing. People at pizzahut must haf thought that we are mad. We even thought of pulling a prank on the staffs when settling the bill. But too bad, we were in school uniforms. We are good students whu maintain the gd reputation of pjc. Haha. Shared icecream. Hmms. I miss swensens icecream mans!! *argh* Oh yarhs. I forgot that the choc fudge wus at the bottom. N ended up we finished everything then discovered abt the fudge. Geez. And I started fooling wif the fudge. Opps. My hellmate wus so evil lahs. She videoed me down. SEVEN VIDEOS of my dumbness. Omg! I oni got TWO precious ones of her. =D I m the angel, she's the devil. =D She's just sososo cute! haha. Geez. I'm showing signs of lesbianism. Kidding. I'm straight. haha. Oh wells. Its good to see you smiling n enjoying urself =D Dun miss me too much when you're away on ur camp. Though I noe you wld.. just refrain abitbit okays? =D *bhb-ism showing* I LOVE YOU, quackiex =D

hmms. Had quietened dwn quite abit recently. As in, I am less noisy as compared to the usual me. Think von's worried fer me. I'm quite fine lahs. Silence fer others may mean that they're sad or sth. But fer me, I'm thinking. Or rather, I chose to retreat back into my own world. Veri weird, isn't it? I'm not unhappy, yet I'm doing this. Rather contradictory. *shrugs* Oh wells, I tend to be unrealistic at times. Thinking that all will turn out as to what I haf expected and when things doesn't, I'll be utterly upset and stuffs. Immature thinking, you might think. But thats just me. Duno why. I dun lyke the world that we live in. Too much complications. I lyke simplicity. I rather be simple-minded n be ignorant abt all that is happening ard me. There is just too much complications everywhere. And it makes ppl confused n lost. I do too, 'cause I dun understand why things hafta turn out in a certain way n can't accept it as it is. hmms. why can't relationships last forever? why can't ppl stay in love forever? why can't breakups cease to exist? why can't everything just turn out to haf a happy ending? why must things be so unpredictable? why must things change? why must ppl change? why can't one stay happy forever? *argh* alrights. I shall calm dwn. hais. Its partly because of all these that we feel so insecure abt our own future. We're living in a world where everything is unpredictable. Where hypocrites, backstabbers, jerks n bastards exist. Hah. Scary world. =( argh. I dun even noe what the hell am I toking abt anemore. I shldn't be feeling this way abt things. By right, I shld be lyking these situations, 'cause I'm a risktaker. Perhaps, its 'cause I've gotten too sick n tired of these complicated challenges in life.. too tired to get hurt.. too tired to endure ane heartbreaks.. too tired to deal wif things bahs.. Perhaps, thats why I wana stay in my own world.. where everything is simple n happy=)

`I have this dream..wishing that I can be always happy with the one whu truly loves me..

back frm night jaunt

Hmms. Am back frm night jaunt. Hmms. Kinda tiring but I had fun! Serious. Though the night jaunt wusn't really a gd success. Oh wells. But one good thing is, everyone had their fair share of fun. Night jaunt ended wif everyone feeling tired but happy. hmms. Night safari wus fun as usual. haha. Took quite a number of pics. hmms. Kelvin's super cute. Hah. Orights. I know this shldn't be cuming frm me. But haha, can't help it. He's a super nice guy to chat wif. Super gentlemanly too. Omg. Haha. Shucks. My weakness got discovered by fen during the night safari. =S hmms. Had Ben&Jerry's too. Yummielicious. haha. Kelvin got a bigger scoop than all of us. Hmmphs. So unfair. hmms. Supper at East Coast Lagoon is great! haha. Wus so darn full lahs. hmms. Too bad we din had time to go check out the Carpark C fer free shows. Tsk! hmms. Changi Village wus erms.. ok lahs.. Kinda got affected by kelvin. Hmms. He felt upset fer them. Went Red House.. but it started pouring then we had to retreat to Geylang. The driver wus super pissed off. And so, I bought soya beancurd fer the driver. Hmms. Went back to Red hse N Old Changi Hospital. Not really freaky lahs. Last stop wus @ the cemetery before we set off back to school. Den it wus home sweet home fer me.

Alrights. I just woke up not long ago. hmms. Still feeling lethargic. Hmms. I know I just pissed off my bf wif my attitude. Hais. Can't help it. I am really feeling veri cranky 'cause I am not able to see him till until.. maeb nxt sat? hais. I'm a hopeless attention seeker. Hais. *shrugs* I'm sorry dear. I din mean to do it. Forgive me?

The day before night jaunt

Am feeling much much beta now. Thanks nessa fer listening to my bullshit. haha. Thanks to my ever so sweet n great boyfren too. Thanks fer taking time out to call me. Hmms. Oh wells. I'm so much better now. Hmms. But I think I am falling sick lers. Having a bad headache. Must be due to getting drenched frm the rain. Heex. I dun lyke bringing umbrella out with me de. yi ge ren cheng san shi hen ji mo de...

Todae's ok day. PE wus TOUGH!! Had five rounds of obstacles course. Sum ppl just look so ridiculous doing them. Haha. I mite be one of them *shrugs* =P hmms. hmms. Rushed to lotone after sch wif flor to avoid being stuck in sch if it rains. Slacked at MAC. hmms. Told flor sum stories. Haha. So funny. hmms. Den pei flor take bus to boonlay fer her bible studies.. N I took the train back to cck. During my journey to boonlay n back to cck, I wus typing a story on my hp. Haha. In cheena. Thats why it took me so long. Just gt the urge to type a nice story. Hmms. Sent to david's hp fer leen n forwarded it to flor too. I just love the story. Just nw read the story to dear. but dun tink he lykes it lahs. I think it must haf sounded real dumb to him lorhs. hais. oh wells. =)

Night Jaunt's tml lers. Omg! so scary. Fer a perfectionist lyke me, I wished that all turns out fine n everyone wld haf lotsa fun. Hais.. too bad my dear wun be ther wif me.. no matter how much I wish.. =(((

xin is useless

I purposely created a password fer my blog fer ppl whu are really close to read my entries. hmms. Am feeling sad nw. 'Cause of what happen to my gd fren. argh. Hmms. Dun wry abt it, girl. Its oni natural that I feel this way. =)

Sumhow, looking at things now, brings back alot of stuffs. All that I haf been thru. The heartaches, the non-stop crying. As well as the tots that went thru my mind during that dark period. Girl, you aren't alone. It's only natural to think of such tots. To feel lost, confused n even the tots of dying. But think abt it. Are those tots worthed put into action? Think abt the consequences. Think abt how ur frens n family wld feel. You've gotta be strong fer them. Just rmb that you'll always have ppl, frens, family members whu really care. If there's anething, just find sumone to tok to. Don't ever worry about troubling ppl. Its not good to keep things bottled up. I used to do it. And I regretted it. 'Cause I nearly died of depression. Rmb that there'll always be us standing by you. Thats what makes u so different frm me. Don't ever think of doing anything stupid. Its not going to make things better. It might just worsen things. My dear girl, rmb that we love you =) God makes things happen fer a reason. Haf faith, dear=)

Hmms. If I were to say, I ain't affected by this all. I wld be lying. Haha. *shrugs* I feel sumthing special between me n my dear girl. Sth reali special. Sth that oni besties share. A ever so special bond. hmms. Of course, I wld feel insecurity right now. But I know, thats not going to help things. I shld haf faith n trust, even if I don't haf in myself, I shld be trusting my other half. Hmms. Sumhow, I feel that, if the same things were to happen to me all over again, I wldn't know what to do. All I know is that, I wld be very lost. And so, I pray hard that, I wun hafta go thru all those again. I hope. =X

I feel so soso guilty. Fer not being able to help though I haf the same experience. Or rather, worse. Just follow ur heart, my dear. Dun lose ur faith due to circumstances. You're a rational girl, frm what I haf always known you to be. Promise me, that you'll gona be all well n happy soon kays? =) I'll pray fer you=)

`I can never imagine life w/o you. I'm feeling scared n insecured right now.

blueyblueymondae

Think I'm having the monday blues as usual=( Kinda feeling rather melancholy quite recently. Duno why. *shrugs* Perhaps, it's just me thinking too much bahs. hais. oh wells. Now fer updates.

Went church service wif flor ysd. The drama wus nice. Haha. Heard frm cheuk that she got freaked out by the actor's shouting in front of her. haha. So funny. Hmms. Den hung ard expo to look at sum exhibits, n not forgetting the johnlittle sale. Haha. Sumhw stil duno understand what's so fascinating abt that sale. Lols. Din see anething that I lyke. haha. Den dragged flor go bugis wif me to shop. Couldn't find the stuffs that I wanted so badly. Shucks. ='(

Todae's a boring boring monday. I'm especially cranky todae. Practically slpt thru most of my lessons. Geez. Feel lyke a piggie now. haha. PE's extremely exhausting todae. haha. todae's nt a gd day=(

sum things are really not meant to be spoken abt. hais. else it might just worsen things. And so, it just did. Hate this type of stuffs. Made me so emotionally-drained. I m veri veri veri tired. But yet, nth cld be done abt it. I just feel so out of this world. Lyke my quackies, sumtimes, I just find life so utterly boring n sucky. lols. Can't help it. I shld b more optimistic. Haha. Tml's gona be a better day! *prays hard*

`when I dun question/say a thing, it doesn't mean I don't care; it just means that I care too much to nt interfere . . .

my boyfren is the sweetest!!

Just reached back hm nt long ago. Rainy weather again. hmms. Todae gt geog tutorial. Went ther to slack 'cause I did NONE of my hwk. haha. oh wells. Left sch wif my darl quack n flor. Hais. My quack's upset. Uhoh. Feeling rather guilty right nw. Sheesh. Shld haf kept my mouth shut. hmms.

Finally convinced flor to go kboxing wif me. I seriously nidda de-stress!! Haf been really cranky recently. Kbox wus fun wif flor. haha. We practically got very hyped up; I think I've gone mad lahs. Food wus okay. Got my fav mini octopus!! haha. heex. alrights. I duno why am I so hyped up todae even though I lacked slp. Heex.

hmms. Jer came at ard twelve to pei wo. He came ova as soon as he woke up. Hmms. so touched lahs. thanks dear. hmms. Went to watch art of seduction at cwp. Lame show lahs. haha. But comical enuff to make me luff. Hmms. after movie, can't think of anething to do lorhs. Hmms. Jer just drove ard then we stopped at sumwher wher we cld see the causeway. Got out of the car to enjoy the breeze awhile before it pours. haha. Sat in the car, listening to music. haha. Den reluctantly, home sweet home. I noe its veri early lahs. But no choice, my bf dun wana kip me company mahs. haha. kidding.

`sumtimes, I am curious to know how important I am in your life . . .

Root Canaling LAST day !!

Just came back frm the dentist not long ago. My dentist's super nice to me todae fer sum unknown reasons. Perhaps, he's happy to be getting rid of me. Haha. Had my last treatment todae. Cool.. haha. Din expect it to be so fast! haha. Last time I had FIVE major treatments before I recovered. The advancement in science n tech rawks mans! =D *big big grin* oh yarhs. When I wus in the dental rm, wus watching the tv n I saw SAS. -__-" he's holding the crown thingy fer the crowning of ms sg universe lahs. He looks so weird in his TIGHT tux. omg. Guess flor *fLo* will be hyperventilating while watching the encore. =Pp

School's okay todae. Just feeling veri drowsy lorhs. I lacked slp. Thanks to my beloved bf. hmms. But I dun blame him lahs. I miss him the same way too. =) hmms. PE's tiring as usual. haha. Todae alot of ppl absent sia. Nv jio me along. Sobs. Oh yarhs. Got our Projwrk results liaos. Everyone gt an A2 except sum. Msged kingkong to tell him. haha. Cheered him up in the midst of his illness. haha. I am a kind soul! =D

alrights. tml's a public hol! wee. Can haf a gd gd rest. hmms. alrights. Am going to slp soon liaos. hmms. my quack isn't veri cheery todae. =( Duno what happen to my quack. * gives quack a hug* hope you'll be smiling again soon =) love ya quack =)

Tiring Wednesday

It's a tiring tiring day. Reached home not long ago. Haha. Am really drained of all my energy lorhs. Hmms. Lessons were boring as usual. Had GP essay practice today. Argh. I realised I can't do a proper essay plan! haha. Just not used to doing it. *shrugs* And during the two hrs break, I wus dying of BOREDOM. Tried to msg Jer but he's busy with his stuffs. hais. Maths wus worse. I am a bad influence, I must admit. I'm always distracting ppl frm studying. oops!

Went fer hclub miting. Todae conducting interviews fer the jc1s. Kinda one-man show. Interviewing ppl IS tiring! All the questionings nearly killed me. Esp the one wif Jingyi. OMG! I had to try very hard to keep a straight face. It's weird interviewing ur fren lahs. Am rather satisfied with their responses. Gene n evan came to crash 'cause I said ther were sum pretty girls. haha. typical guys. *shakes head* hmms. Right now, having lotsa probs wif night jaunt. Spidey wana go, jingyi n gang wana go, SO MANY PPL WANA GO but I can't do much to help!! argh.

After meeting, went off wif von, fen, gene n evan. Tok crap again. I dropped my wallet on the bus again. Duno why recently I haf becum so careless. haha. Jialat. hmms. Had lunch wif fen before goin window shopping. Lunch wus great. haha. Wus toking abt fen abt my great other half. haha. Found a gorgeous dress. Simple design but sleek. =D

Tml's the last sch day of the week!! *though am having geog tutorial on sat* WEE!! haha. Gona go off to TRY studying fer maths test.

`missing eu far too much=(

Monday blues =/

Think I'm having the Monday blues. Have been feeling cranky fer the whole day. My gastrics's killing me! argh. Hate it. Now I can't even go on a proper diet. Sianned. Maybe, I shldn't skip my meals so often. Blehs. *shrugs*

Had a nice girls' talk wif susu, flor, leen, n my quackiex. Though kinda crappy n the contents kinda.. urms.. weird? okays. But I'm open to such stuffs. So I'm okay wif it. *winkx* hmms. Den leen mentioned my blog. haha. I love that quote too!! "love is not about the moments you shared wif your other half, but about the number of moments that take your breath away." nice rites? haha. Think abt it. How many such moments actually exist in your relationship? hmms. =)

Leen also mentioned abt the quote that always appeared at the left-hand bottom of my blog. "time heals all wounds but breeds new ones." hmms. I din think of this myself. It came with this blogskin n I chose to keep it 'cause I find it rather true. hmms. alrights. it all depends bahs. hmms. true la. time can ease the hurt n pain you once faced or been thru though the scars remain deep dwn. hmms. as fer the second part of that quote. hmms. sumtimes, a guy cums along. Feelings developed, sparks fly all over the place. Sumhow, you just feel that he's the right one. But if he's not, ther goes the vicious cycle again, breeding new wounds. hmms. but then again, I'm no pessimist lahs. hmms. just saying what I feel bahs. *shrugs*

Sumhow, I dun feel lyke going fer night jaunt anemore. Its gona b all weird since he's going. Alrights. I dun reali hate so much anemore. Hating is tiring. But, sumthing just hold me back frm forgiving such a person. My principles? Or merely my stubbornness? I dun deny, I am a selfish lover. sumone whu wldn't wana share my other half. N nids lotsa attention n love. haha. hmms. Hopefully, I can enjoy night jaunt. Its gona be my last hclub activity lers. =S

Gona go rest lers. Pretty worn out after PE lers. tata~

`hoping that you are the right one fer me *Je t' aime*

xin ain't happy.

Dun ask me why I ain't happy. Its just the emotion in me right now. Could be 'cause of all the sad songs that I haf been blasting in my ears. Could be 'cause what happened last night when I reached hm. Could be 'cause of all the stress that I am facing and giving myself bahs.

hmms. ysd after my date wif Jer. Came home oni to find dad on the phone wif mdm khoo, my civic tutor. Hmms. alrights. dad wusnt exactly happy with what he heard lahs. hais. All I get is blames after blames. yayaya.. its all my fault. Not not putting enuff efforts. Even the fact that I wus veri sick during my CT period wusn''t a good enuff excuse. Its not as though I am proud of my results lidat. argh. I am darn disappointed too kays?! Just that I dun show it much tts all. Feeling so tired n stressed out. Parents quarrelling behind my back. argh. Can't I just have sum peace? * xin needs a shoulder to lean n cry on*

hmms. my unhappiness has nth to do wif my dear. hmms. on the hand, I think I haf always been making him unhappy n stuffs. hais. Sorry jer. hmms. I am such a lousy gf lahs. Its lyke I can't even go msia to meet you n you are always making the trips to sg to keep me company. I feel so guilty. Sorry dear.

Just saw this on the PRF's blog. Posted by my hellmate. I'm just copying over those related to me de. haha.

Personality test by name : Doesyour name begin with:

J?You are blessed with a great deal of physical energy. When used for a good cause there is nothing to stop you, except maybe that they aren't always used for the good. ( you could dance all night.) You respond to the thrill of the chase and the challenge of the mating game. You can carry on great romances in your head. At heart you are a roamer and need to set out on your own every so often. You will carry on long- distance relationships with ease. You are idealistic and need to believe in love. You have a need to be nurtured deep within.

truetruetrue. haha. yarhs. 100% true of me. blehs.

By month : MAY*Stubborn and hard-hearted *Strong-willed and highly motivated *Sharp thoughts *Easily angered *Attracts others and loves attention *Deep feelings *Beautiful physically and mentally *Firm standpoint *Easily influenced *Needs no motivation *Easily consoled *Systematic (left brain) *Loves to dream *Strong clairvoyance *Understanding *Sickness usually in the ear and neck *Good imagination *Good debating skills *Good physical *Weak breathing *Loves literature and the arts *Loves traveling *Dislike being at home *Restless *Hardworking *High spirited *Spendthrift

Quite true bahs. haha. =Pp

By birthdate: May 15th - May 24thGold

GOLD ~ You know what's right and what's wrong. You are cheerful and out going. It's hard for you to find the one you want, but once you find the right person, you won't be able to fall in love again for a long time.

Yupsyups. TRUE. haha. I just love personality tests that analysize me so accurately. haha. =D

alrights. Gotta go study lers. Gonna mug hard fer midyear exams. =)

Random post

Random post. Its Friday once again. Today wusn't a bad day. Except that Mdm Khoo, my civic tutor, actually talked to me. Talked abt my sucky results. She said she's going to call my daddy n talk to him abt it. Argh. I am so dead. Hopefully daddy wun make a big fuss out of it. Anewae, she's sending me for econs remedial. OMG! Thats goin to suck mans. Its lyke sending me to the nunnery lidat lahs. =X its just a metaphor. haha. Imagine jiaxin goin fer econs remedial. Thats goin to be sum joke of the yr lahs! >.< color="#cc66cc">Seven mths to my freedom! =D

Hmms. Today nearly went to sch late again. Fen told me sum stuffs that got me rather pissed off. hmms. I wusnt pissed off by her. But the contents of what she said. Hmms. Sorry fen. I can't help it lahs. I'll try to be nice =) hmms. My mood wus spoilt fer the whole day. Talked to my hellmate abt stuffs frm the past. Bad memories. hmms. Its alrdy too late fer repentance. What's the use since the harm n hurt haf been done? Sorry fen. I just can't bring myself to forgive sumone lidat completely. Sorry.

Oh yarhs! today flor took my hellmate's photo while she wus snoozing during assembly. She's so gorgeous even when she's dozing off to slp. Sheesh..I am so in love wif my hellmate=D Peiling is such a great hellmate. *xin showing signs of turning les..uhoh* she's gorgeous, funny, lame, hot n sexy. N also, she's so nice to me!! We had a romantic walk in the rain ysd. She even held the umbrella fer me. So sweet right?!! =D I'm leaving my hp's wallpaper as it is. Its so nice lahs. I LOVE MY QUACK=D

hmms. Had a gd chat wif my gd fren just nw. Were talking abt our future stuffs. He said my thinking has changed lers. Haha. Haf I? hmms. Perhaps bahs. I used to be veri simple-minded. Blehs. hmms. I din change much lahs. Just dun really expect much frm my future now. After so much things, just realised that everything is so unpredictable. Not trying to be pessimistic here. hmms. oh wells. All I asked fer is a simple n peaceful life. haha. And so wher do I go after jc? hmms. hopefully, I can get into an uni. SMU seems so out of reach. Alas fer me. I'm always having such high expectations of myself. And after uni? hmms. find wrk bahs. Haha. I used to think of getting married right after studies 'cause I'm veri sick of life as a student. And wana stay hm n enjoy life. bLehs. crazy old me. oh wells. no office wrk fer me. That will bore me to death. haha. I need excitement in my life =D haha. And after that? hmms. Decide to wrk till sumone's willing to take up the burden of taking care of me. haha. Or till I haf earn enuff to stay hm n enjoy my life. *shrugs* Haha. As compared to mine, my fren's future plan is so much detailed, so much full of ambition. Haha. Oh wells. To me, simplicity is beauty.

Gona go mugging soon. Hehehs. I will get my As n Bs fer mid yrs! * xin gives nerdy look* Haha.

`i really really miss you so.

Root canaling Day 1

Finally been to the dentist to start on my treatment. Hmms. Wus freaking out even before I wus in the room. Sumhow, my fear of pain is growing lahs. Hmms. Shan't gross you ppl out with the details. Am expected to experience pain tonight. argh. Sucky. =(

Sch's fine todae. hmms. I survived thru maths tutorial. haha. My whole grp practically just slacked. We were guessing each other's pri n sec schs. haha. Reali bo liao. =Pp. Oh yarhs. PE wus torturous. I forgot tt my gastrics ain't that well recently, n had overdose of chilli. argh. And ended up having serious cramps after 800m warmup jog. Me n flor purposely overtook 'ermhmm'. Haha. She seemed to haf a hard time catching up cause we were quite fast. Haha. This will teach her to underestimate us. =Pp

Oh wells. Also kept myself busy wif this nice personality test book that my hellmate brought fer me. hmms. Quite accurate. Esp fer me. I am unique. Haha. As in being half taurus n Gemini. =D

Taurus ~Those born under the sign of Taurus are represented by the bull, an animal known for its resolute stubbornness. *heex.. I dun deny this* It’s your defining characteristic, in both positive and negative ways. At your best, you’re determined, persistent and enduring; you’re a reliable and trusted ally. You like your way of doing things – you’ve been doing it that way for years and wouldn’t think of doing otherwise. You’ve set a steady routine in life; people could set a clock by you and your habits. But your stubbornness also means you’re highly resistant to change. You tend to be inflexible in your habits and your beliefs, which others might find offputting.

Strengths~Placid, down-to-earth, patient, stable, stalwart, sensible and charming

Weakness~Obstinate, stingy, overbearing, plodding, self-indulgent, possessive, materialistic and conservative

Your love life~Afraid of being hurt, you don’t enter into relationships lightly, but because of your strong desire for emotional security when you do commit, you commit for life. *veri true norhs* As a result, you tend to hang on too long after a relationship has run its course. The biggest threat to your romantic happiness is your jealousy and possessiveness *used to be lidat..but now..duno lehs.. I haf learn to let go ler bahs; whatever will be, will be*, which partners may find it stifling. Learn to let go a little and allow your mate some independence which you could learn to enjoy too. A breath or two of fresh air can only revitalize your relationship. You also tend to seek out relationships that can offer you security, but there needs to be passion in the mix as well.*bingo!!* You’re a sensual person; you deserve a lover who can ignite the smoldering flames within you.

Gemini~Like their namesake Twins, Geminis aren’t easily pigeonholed. In fact, you resist being labeled at all costs. You’re innately curious, and you love exploring and trying new things – often more than one at a time. A gifted, lively dilettante, you’re always eager to learn a new skill, take on a new challenge, try a new restaurant. You’re on a lifelong quest for constant simulation, and you get bored easily. *xin nods violently*

Strengths~Witty, versatile, entertaining, progressive, quick-witted, vivacious, inquisitive

Weakness~Scattered, fickle, unpredictable

Your love life~Because even you need a relationship that has some common ground, you should find an intellectually stimulating partner who shares some but not all of your interests and opinions. You need some discussion and arguments to keep the passion alive; otherwise you;ll be tempted to look outside of the relationship time and again. You’re an incurable flirt, and your partner will need to be understanding and forgiving of your wandering eye. But in turn, you must learn to be more constant and warmer, and to show your partner exactly how you’re feeling. And stop flirting with every attractive stranger that catches your eye. *hey hellmate.. I m no incurable flirt lorhs. I dun flirt liaos. Haha. at least nt on purpose=Pp*

Hmms. before I end off this long n crappy post. Hmms. Must thank my beloved hellmate QUEK PEILING fer walking n sheltering me frm the rain out of sch today. *hugs* Thank yew GORGEOUS! =D

`i miss you badly, do you know that?

new blogskin !!

wee! new blogskin. Nice right? but I haf got probs wif the template which explains why ther is the error thing appearing when u access my blog. So sorry ppl. BABA!! help me pls?!!

Oh wells. Ain't in the best of moods today. Am feeling rather down. Perhaps, 'cause of the bad chairing of the hclub meeting bahs. I do not make a gd pres. I sux at chairing meetings. Haish. *shrugs* Plus, today wus pretty tiring fer me. Duno why. Perhaps its just fatigue bahs.

Just gotten off the phone wif nessa. Hmms. Listened to her 'complaints'. Aiya. Not really complaints lahs. Just listened to her probs lorhs. Hmms. Girl, I only got one thing to say to you. Just be yourself. In fact, all these probs are pretty minor. Just think positive. You know, sumtimes, I just wished I cld be you. So carefree. I miss that feeling.

hmms. Think I pissed Jer off over the phone today. hais. Din mean to do it on purpose. Sorry dear. Am really too tired. Hope you'll at least try to understand alittle? hmms. I am really sorry. Sincerely apologetic fer my tone. Sorry.

Haven been really happy recently. Dun understand why exactly so myself. hmms. Just gt this emptiness in me whenever I am all alone. Hmms. todae did a personality test. "what is ur personality color?" I am "green". And the analysis fer my color matches completely wif my personality. Amazing isnt it? hmms. Fear of being alone. Yarhs. Thats so ME! hmms. N Green ppl tends to think alot. Are emotional. Risktakers. Greens are the ppl whu will take the blame on themselves even if the other party is at fault. *peiling n I agreed on this strongly* N yada yada. hmms. duno why I haf that stupid fear oso. Frens tell me that I ain't considered alone when I am attached. hmms. true to a certain extent. But being attached doesn't mean that I can be ard my guy 24/7 right? He needs his own space too mahs. N sumtimes, I've got this feeling that he's much happier when he's with his frens rather than being with me. So why bother? *shrugs* Perhaps, its the thoughts that cross my mind when I m all alone. dumb tots. I tend to think too much. thats what ppl sae. But is that really true? I duno it myself. hais. I m weird. haha.

Hais. Am feeling really cranky right now. I need a hug badly right now. =(

=)

Hmms. Haven been updating fer quite sumtime lers. Been pretty busy with the lifeless jc schlife. Seriously lahs. jc life excluding my great galfrens, the other aspects are just so sucky. argh. =( hmms. all you do is MUG n MUG n MUG n MUG n MUG NON-STOP! what kind of life is that? I hate routines. -__-

Nth much is happening in my life bahs. hmms. urms.. must thank my dear fer spending yesterday with me. It wus our 100th day together! wee. haha. alrights. paiseh. din really haf anething planned. But yarhs, I love you most! =D

This sat is 'meet the parents cum higher ed day'. Boring to the max lahs. Hmms. its lyke taking up my whole daytime lorhs. What a waste of precious time! haha. I din intend to spend it on quality studying lahs, you all shld noe. =Pp

Oh wells. geog field trip is cancelled lers. but the bad news is I will be having a lot of geog tutorials. argh. hais. hmms. oh wells. gotten the timetable fer a lvls papers liaos. I oni hafta go fer six days n my last paper is on 16th Nov. WEE!! lala~ so hapi.. haha.. I can't wait! haha. oh wells. I m goin bonkers lers after all the stress. Going off to rest lers. haven been slping much lately=(

`sum things are meant to be left unspoken.

april's fool day

Before I start on my random rambling of my boring life, I wld to wish all..

"Hapi April's Fool Day !!"

Alrights. I serious dun lyke the idea of being treated lyke a fool lahs. haha. not tt I ain't sporting enuff to accept jokes. But the idea of being treated tt way just puts me off. Duno why oso. *shrugs* ONI ONE PERSON ATTEMPTED TO TRICK ME AND SUCCEEDED TODAE. argh. alrights. but since I am a nice person. I shall forgive that special sumone =D

Let me blog abt ysd first bahs. Got darwin mass buffet last night. Not really a success. But we did haf fun, din we? haha. The food wus alright, just that there were too little varieties. okok. I shldnt haf such high expectation fer sth I oni paid five bucks fer. There were alot of ppl whu came fer free lahs. tsktsktsk. =P hmms. Mass dance n fun dance were fun!! 'Cause of my beloved hellmate, PEILING!! she is so gorgeous, sexy n hot=D haha. oops. alittle too much details=P haha. BUT! Its all facts=D Another funny thing at the mass buffet, Spidey tried to trick us wif his card tricks. haha. But they dun wrk on me. I think I am a curse in his life. Blehs. aww.. so sad..=Pp After buffet, waited fer leen. Den me, flor, peipei, leen, baba n cassie went Mac to haf desserts. Haha. We were noise pollutants ther lahs. Had lotsa fun ther. Haha. =D

Now fer todae. Went clementi meet leen fer Kbox. So fun lahs!! haha. long time nv K liaos. Miss the feeling of singing ther mans. haha. Took sum nicenice pics ther. haha. Had so much fun wif leen todae. must go again soon!! haha.

Den went back Wdls to meet Jer. hmms. Miss him so much lahs. hmms. Watch ultraviolet. FINALLY lahs. haha. hmms. nth much to do at cwp den Jer met up wid his fren. Had to cum hm early eventually cuz Jer's daddy wans him hm. Sobs. =( Wei.. I hope u really din open up the envelope lahs. Else..else.. I really really wun tok to you ever again de lorhs.. >.<

" Love is not abt the moments that you share wif your other half, but about the no. of moments that take your breath away."

Dying alrdy

I seriously am beginning to hate my dentist more and more. Argh. The painkillers he gave dun work on me! argh. I am hurting lyke shit right now. And I really can't take it anemore ler lorhs. Its really painful. Not normal pain lorhs. Its a sharp pain that hits ur nerves, making you feel lyke dying. If you understand how I am feeling, that is. =(

Hmms. Din go sch todae. Wus hurting real bad fer the whole dae. Painkillers just dun wrk on me. Duno why. argh. Can't even smile properly w/o feeling pain. This sucks seriously. hais. And by missing sch todae. I kinda missed alot of stuffs. My first hclub miting this yr. Gp presentation. hse meeting too. Sianned. And I had to get updated by others. =(

I M DYING! the pain is killing me. nt that i love crying, but the pain is really too much fer me to take. There is no one ard fer comfort. No one here fer me. =( argh.

Hopeless liaos.

=( Am in PAIN now. argh. My tooth hurts badly now. Haven been to the dentist yet. Kinda regretted nt going lahs. But urms. hais. Duno lahs. Not really feeling all that great and happy today. 'Cause my toothache is killing me. I even had to sit out fer PE. 'Cause it's causing a terrible headache as well. Hais. Lyke what Mrs Wee, my PE teacher, said to me, a toothache is no kidding. Serious lorhs. Its no minor case. It actually affects u as a whole. I hate PAIN! argh. though this can help me lose weight. But I wana lose weight PAINlessly. haha. Vanity again.

Todae is a boring schday. Sumhow, it din feel lyke one. I am kinda in hols mood. Duno why. Got back maths *i flunk it bad* , phy geog * I gt a B!!* , econs mcq *i PASSED on the dot* Haha. I shall be dying another two more times fer my econs drq n essays. Woohoo. Ran two rounds fer PE before I surrendered. haha. Den stupid FEI called me a slacker. As though I wana slack fer PE lidat lorhs. Napha cuming lers. I dun dare. haha. Dun wana history to repeat itself. I am a GEOG student. Okays. Thats rather lame. Blehs. I am seriously dying of the pain. Gona go rest lers. Guess I wun be able to get to slp tonite liaos. Sianned.

` I just needed sumone to be ther fer me

=(

BAD NEWS!! fer me that is. =( daddy wans me to go to my dentist asap. argh. I dread it mans. Dun lyke goin alone. Sobs. =,(

Its freaking to be inside that small confined place all alone. I am not claustrophobic. But its still freaking lahs. =( *xin shivers at the tot of it* hmms. everything sucks at the dentist except the xray of my tooth. Thats the oni cool part. Heex.

I DUN WANA GO ALONE. sobs.

Judgement Day's tml

Alrights. Since peipei n wquan both requested fer me to permablog here. And so, I shall. Haha. Hmms. This weekend nth much happening. Went watch Failure to launch on Fridae before going to home to celebrate sis's bday. Had an ultralong meeting before that lahs. It wus just crapping. Craps. And more craps. Gona haf our first hclub reunion on the coming wednesday! Wonder how many ppl will turn up. Really hope that the turnup rate will be good.=)

Argh. these few days haf been not veri enjoyable fer me. Not tt it wus nt enjoyable at all. Just tt I din get the max enjoyment. 'Cause of my stupid tooth. Argh. this sucks lahs. Its hurting again. After four bloody yrs and its giving me the same prob again. Hmms. Alrights. I shld haf gone straight back to my dentist fer sum checkup. But I din. 'Cause I alrdy knew whats instored fer me liaos. This stupid tooth has been lyke costing me alot lahs. Hundreds after hundreds. Mum last time actually asked me to get it plucked out. Heheh. You all shld know me well lahs. This type of request, mite as well as me go die lorhs. First, I HATE the sensation of pain, esp in this case. Second, I dun lyke to a empty space inside my mouth. Guess what stupid reason I told my mum last time. I actually told her that fer the sake of my singing future, I shld just go fer the op. haha. Dun get it? Singing future = choir. haha. I shall wait till the pain starts murdering me, den I shall go see the dentist. For sum reasons, I HATE dentists. Long stories.. hais.. my sad sad past.. =P

Tml is Judgement Day!! Geez.. First time in history that you ever seen teachers being so efficient. Hmms. This time round, I am not greedy. I just wana PASS!! *prays hard* Hey. I am really scared lehs. Completely lack of confidence this time rd. What happened to my confidence?!! argh. alrights. Shall be optimistic. I WILL PASS!! and what if I dun? heh. *shrugs*

alrights. Ending here. hmms. oh yarhs. nearly forgot. Hapi sch reopening to Jer! haha. here cums ur torturous schdays as well. Gd luck to you if your results are cuming too =) love ya lots!=)

One last paper . . .

Hmms. Realised that I have been neglecting this blog of mine for alittle bit too much. Haha. Anewae, kinda feel lyke updating here todae. Kinda decided to leave the more emo stuffs fer this blog and the nt-so-emo stuffs fer the other blog. Dun question me on why the hell am I having two blogs. 'Cause I duno the answer myself. =S *shrugs*

Oh wells. Am having my last paper tomorrow. Human Geography. How fun~! *alrights. I do sound sarcastic* haha. I am stil trying to psycho myself into loving the subjects I take. Hmms. Just now wus trying to fall aslp in the evening but got woken up by minghong. He wanted to ask me go learn dance wif him. Haha. True lahs. I love dance. But right now, though I really wanna go fer what I want, time doesn't really permits me to do so. Haish. Wells, too bad lorhs.

Sians. Tml is sis's bday. Haha. Had a pleasant surprise planned fer her lers. Think she'll be veri touched and hapi. haha. I m so nice. Haha. Blehs. Oh wells. Gotta go slp lers. I nid my energy to go wild after my paper tml. Wahaha. Blehs. =P

Mere Updating..

Stupid gu asked me to update. And here I am. I'm proud to announce tt I m FULLY recovered!! Wee!! U ppl can nv understand the joy tts in me right nw. It feels great to be well again!! haha. Alright. I know.. I know.. It all boils dwn to vanity. Blehx.

Oh wells. Peipei dey all asked to do this interesting test. And here's my results.

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Low
Lust:	Medium
Pride:	High

Discover Your Sins - Click Here

Hmm.. Wells.. Its kinda accurate lah. haha. But then again, pride dun always get me dwn lah. Sumtimes, it does, I can't deny that fact. But not all the time. Haha.

Been feeling kinda cranky lately. Been thinking too much, I think. Got sum questions in me, that I haf been longing to ask sum ppl. But din haf the courage to. Hah. But sumtimes, I really feel lyke finding out. Not as though, getting the answer would mean anething la. But..perhaps..its just.. emm.. curiosity? Perhaps bah.. =S

hmm.. Love this quote frm eileen's blog:

"Men always want to be a woman's first love, while women like to be a man's last romance."

Quite true.. Hmm.. Think most females out there think the same way too. But then again.. after all tt I haf been thru.. hmm.. A man's last romance? Hard to cum abt, unless the relationship is really based on pure true love. *shrugs* One can always wish, can't I? haha.

Gona end this entry wif this nicenice quote..

"It's not who you are to the world, it's who you are to me. It's not how many times I say I love you... it's how much I really do."

Common test Stress

Its a nicenice Sunday! Hmm.. Actually intended to go swimming this morn but my headache seemed to b getting worse. Sobs. Hmm.. Had been having headache since I reached hm last night. Jialat. Hmm.. Let me update arh.. hmm.. I gt oni an A2 fer chinese. Which is darn disappointing. alright. alright, I haf high expectations of myself even though I din bothered to study fer my exams at all. Hmm.. meanwhile, I haf decided to turn ova a new leaf. haha. Dun luff leh. I m trying horx! haha.

Ysd went out wif Jer. Hmm. Went buy tix fer 'i nt stupid too' n ' final destination3'.Den went lib to study. But basically wus juz wasting time ther lo. haha. hmm.. the movies r okay la. but Final dest3 wus.. abit gross n sadistical. haha. I m nt a sadistic person but no choice fer me la, since my boyfren enjoys such shows. haha.

hmm.. Just nw went to read ster's blog n her 'bro' 's blog. hmm. Realised how familiar the situation is. Ster!! u stil rmb tt I haf been thru the exact same thing? Except mine wus more complicated? haha. seriously, this is too much of a coincidence sia. hmm.. Here's my advice to you, my dear gurl, hmm.. dun get too close to him becuz of sympathy. Its gona make things worse. Just show concern, but nt too much. N b firm abt ur stand. hmm.. you'll get ur letter in the nxt few daes. =)

Gona go mugging ler.. haha..

`Gd luck fer your exams, dear. Jiayou, dear!=)